I must be honest, I'm not entirely against the idea of working. I enjoy my job and am looking forward to getting my teeth stuck into something and being 'me' again, rather than just M's Mummy.
On the other hand I feel terrible that I am going to be leaving my tiny daughter for such long stretches of time. Not being there for her every moment, seeing her smiling face whenever I want and being there for all of her 'firsts'. She's an absolute delight to be around and I am going to miss my little friend.
Over the past week it has really hit home quite how quickly the past nine months have passed by, and the anxiety around returning to work is setting in. I think this is a combination of factors but includes the fact that I went along to my company Christmas party and was regaled with tales of initiatives across the office, which perhaps I felt I should have implemented. The lady who has done a wonderful job of taking on one element of my role was also awarded Employee of the Year. It's fabulous for her and I am so pleased (as she's utterly wonderful), but has also made me particularly concerned about my own abilities when I return.
I am particularly thinking now that I will not have the time to dedicate to the role that I did before. My daughter will take up a large portion of my time, and then I will also need to spend time working on the house and also being a wife. It's going to take some juggling! I hope to be able to start vlogging the true reality of being a working Mum so keep your eyes peeled!
Do you have any tips on how to survive as a working Mum? And how to balance your jobs-employee, mother and wife?
Going to miss this little face!
